Oh those glorious wins.

Ok.  Failing minimums is not exactly a win.   But it was for me.

This is the test.

http://wftda.com/resources/wftda-minimum-skill-requirements.pdf

Now, the 27 laps in 5 minutes is for Charter so us Freshmeat are only expected to get 25.

The first round of Freshmeat I passed all derby skills like pack work, hits, jumps which was pretty rad.....but I may have blown every skating skill (remember, I had never worn skates before)

This time?   The only things holding me back were 1.5 laps (bout 288 feet) , some sharking and those goddamned pylons I had to weave through.  My tstops also suck balls but I just got the feel of them and that certainly didn't break me.

AND THAT'S SO FUCKING AMAZING!!!!!!!!

My only goal this time was to finish and to improve.  Not only did I finish I shattered all of my expectations.  Not only that, the trainers have told me to challenge these minimums in a month as they are certain I can pass.

So yeah, I pretty much died of the happy and the feels.

That was fun

The other day I did four things.

1). Relinquished custody of my children
2). Got a realitor
3). Cleared out some shares
4). Vigorously looked for a kibbutz to join.


And I meant business.

Aaaaaaannd now I don't.


The good news is that my ex husband is a rock star and was overwhelmingly supportive, encouraging and sympathetic.

The bad news is that I now have a really pushy real estate agent I need to get rid of as well as really puffy eyes and a bad headache.

I don't think that kind of reaction, while certainly a long time coming, is in anyway shape or form a reasonable reaction to anything but maaaybe a Zombie Apocalypse.   And it's pretty much the shittiest feeling in the world.  Afterall, losing all hope, even if for only a day or two guts ya.


That was a really aggressive reminder that I NEED  to start taking care of myself, always.


What better way to start back on the path of happiness then to make sure I see my doctor asap complete The 30 Days of Bad Decisions challenge.   My life path is not empty and meaningless.  My life path is TO COMPLETE THIS MAGICAL CHALLENGE and document it.



Finally, out of nowhere....purpose.