I have been spoiled in my life. I have never experienced any real loss. This numbness, followed by fits of sobbing, back to numbness, more sobbing is new. In the span of two hours I have berated myself for spending what few minutes I have laughing with the kitties and Gary several times. Wondering why I am changing the litter box.
My boss has been marvy. Got a free pass on today. Good thing as my desk is littered with little stones she gave me over the years that she picked up on her travels. Do I put them away for a bit? Is that shitty?
I guess this is part of growing older. Gone are the days when you get news of aunts and uncles passing.
Now it's friends.
And it sucks.
Harder than I thought possible.
Sleep tight, my friend. I'm so glad I had the privilege of knowing you. You were that one of a kind good that is so terribly hard to find and I am glad I found it in you.
I wish we had just one more day.
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